Chapter 11:Welcome to the World Baby Girl!

I got into my room and it was a nice room. I had no idea anything that was going to happen other than the fact that I was going to be pushing a baby out of me in the next while. They put a monitor on my stomach, just to make sure this wasn't a false labor. Well, It wasn't, it was legit. They then put an IV into my wrist, like on the side which hurt like a son of a gun! Then we just kinda chilled for a little while. 
My mom and dad had been there from the get go. Then a few hours later my sisters showed up at about 4 am. Then my Grandma showed up at like 5 am. My contractions didn't really hurt that bad, and by about 5 am I had dilated to like a 9 so I was going pretty fast for a first timer.  My contractions got a little worse but I could handle it, they just were so close that I didn't have recovery time between them, but then the nurses came in and said that I was going so fast that if I wanted an epidural that I needed to get it then or I might not have a chance to. This was pretty much the only part of the whole labor that I actually cried. I was petrified of this large needle and tube going into my back. My mom sat with me and calmed me down. My sisters wanted to stay and see, but I knew this would scar them for life if they had to witness that large of a needle into me, so I wouldn't let them. 
When the anesthesiologist came, I did know him and I told him how freaked out I was about this. I think he could see how scared I was because I was still shaking so bad. And those shakes hurt pretty bad they were so violent.  Any who,  he said he would be as gentle as he could and would walk me through the whole thing. He numbed the skin, which wasn't bad at all then suddenly he was done.  I felt the tube go in my back but it didn't hurt at all I was totally shocked.    To me a flu shot hurt worse than an epidural did. 
Right after my epidural, my shaking stopped...well at least on the lower half of me, my arms still shook a little but that helped me to calm down and rest a little. The feeling of not feeling my legs was soooo weird. But I couldn't feel any pain so it was nice. 
The nurses kept coming in and checking me. I was going super fast. By about 7 am I had fully dilated. They said they would call the doctor and get him there. They came back in and said that he would be there within the hour. I waited and umm waited and you know waited a little more. It was like 9 before he got there. He came in and checked me out and was like oh your water hasn't broke we will wait for it to naturally break. So we waited..and waited and it like sorta broke but not very much. Then suddenly I had a lot of pressure and felt like I needed to push, we got the nurses and doctor in there, They said I was super close they just needed to break my water, so they did and it wasn't bad at all. Then they prepped everything and explain how this whole birthing thing was going to go on.
The doctor got going and said oh good we will have this baby here within the hour. I was so excited. But he lied it took almost 2 hours to get my baby here. First off her poor little head kept getting stuck on my pelvic bone and I kept passing out a little so I had to be put on oxygen after each contraction.  The doctor had been with me so long that he decided to take a break and leave for a minute but I kept pushing. The second he walked back into the door he just yelled "STOP!" ha I could feel the baby like 3 seconds away from being here so I was not stoping! He barely made it to the bed just to catch her. He didn't even have time to put his gloves on. 
Before I had time to comprehend that I just gave birth they handed her to me. She looked just as I expected but completely different all at the same time. She was beautiful. I cried the second they put her in my arms. I had never been in so much love. They took her over to check her out and they asked me about her name. I had 3 names on my list Autrie, Hudson, and Nixxon. I knew her name had to be Nixxon when I saw her. She was as unique as her name. 
She was healthy and perfect the only thing wrong was that she weighed a lot more than he had expected.. Nixxon was 6.7 Ibs, 19.75 inches long...which he was positive that she would be just above 5 Ibs and tiny... NOPE my baby was a big baby for my family. All my sisters and myself were tiny. I was 5.6my sister was 5.4 and my youngest was 5.2. Now I am 4'10 and normally like 83 Ibs so that big of a baby for me blew every one away. 
My family loved Nixxon from the start she was defiantly going to be spoiled from the minute they saw her :)

Chapter 10 Someone is on their way :)

It finally got down to that last week of the pregnancy. I was due March 26 2012, and that whole week I thought EVERY little pain was a labor pain. I would start timing every time something small happened just to see if it was a contraction, but it never really was anything.
On March 24 I went to watch my sister play in a softball tourney. Since I live in a very small down, everyone knows everyone, and knows everything about everyone. Everyone kept saying things like aren't you due today? I had to keep telling them nope I have 2 more days... or there was the whole "still no baby?"  I was   honestly about ready so answer someone by saying "oh ya she came last night but I am just playing kangaroo and keeping her in my pouch" I was a little on edge.
Then one of my moms good friends kept teasing me that when your face swells that is when you know the baby is coming.  Just to add to it she kept telling me that my lips looked huge (they did in fact) I thought she would for sure be coming in about a week.
After the games I was able to just go home and rest. The whole rest of the night I felt sick. I was sure is was just from being in the sun all day long, and not drinking enough water. I went to bed about 9 p.m. At about 11:30 p.m. I felt a really weird pain in my hips, and was pretty sure it was just my ligaments being pulled by the way I was sleeping. So I got up and walked around and went to the bathroom. For some odd reason I looked in the toilet before I peed (weird I know ) but I seen a weird looking thing floating and thought Oh my gosh is that my plug, then figured it wasnt then just tried to go back to sleep, but the pain just wouldnt go away. So I thought I better go to a hospital. I walked into my parents room and quietly said "mom, dad" but they never heard me, so I grabbed my moms foot and said mom a little louder. She sat up and asked what was wrong. I told her I was in pain but didnt know if i was in labor or not. My dad shot straight out of bed and kinda panicked a little we started to time the pains and they were about 7 minutes apart so my mom said to hurry and get  cleaned up a little and I was ready to go to the hospital because my contractions were so close together. When she said that  I got soo freaked out that I was shaking so bad I looked like I was having a seizure but it was just because I was probably having a small panic attack.
We live like 3 blocks from the hospital so I got there super quick. We walked into the ER and they asked what was wrong and my mom answered "I think we are going to have a baby" then they put me in  a wheelchair and wheeled me down to room 32 Labor and delivery.  Here it went :)

Chapter 9 the countdown begins!

Since my Baby Girl was due in March I had a few months on my hands just to rest and get ready for this bundle of joy.  I was too pregnant to get a job, so I volunteered at a local kindergarten class, and pretty much sat home all day long. Some days I cleaned the house, or just slept. I mostly slept because being that pregnant sucks the life out of you!

 Soon the weeks started to count down, then the weeks, then the days. Me being super freaked out by needles or pain of any kind the thought of labor put me into tears and a small panic attack. I would watch MTV's show 16 and Pregnant , because ha these were girls I could sorta relate to so I watched it , but when it got to the whole labor part of the show...I started to cry I got so freaked out! I figured that I was such a baby myself how was I going to bring one into this world.  Those last few weeks before I was due I was so panicked. Like two weeks before I was due I went to the doctors and ha I was dilated to a 3...hearing that made this whole thing a reality!

I had always pictured my whole pregnancy with a loving husband by my side the whole time, both of us getting excited about our new baby coming into this world, him calming my fear of all aspects of labor. Instead I had my mom by my side the whole time, which was probably just as good since she had been through having 3 kids. I am so grateful for my mom helping me out through out the whole pregnancy and now we were getting ready for the labor..the end of the pregnancy.