Chapter 29- I cant always win

So yesterday as I was getting ready for church my parents texted me while they were in stake conference and told me that Joe was ordained an Elder which in the LDS church usually means he is going to be called as a missionary when they asked who would sustain him, my friend told me that a few people did not raise their hands. My parents were worried how I took the news so they hurried home to check on me. I was upset but didn't want to think about it at the moment so I went on with my day. I guess later in the day they asked those who would be serving a mission in the next two years to stand up. Guess who freaking stood up. Joe. The church had called me in and asked if I would do a paternity test to see if he was the father so they could decide if he was worthy or not. I told them I could not put my daughter in that situation and they said they would handle it. I guess they decided to believe him and give him a shot. Which for me is good because he is out of my hair for 2 years which is FANTASTIC but at the same time if he goes I can not imagine the rumours that will fly about me lying about everything because parents can not serve missions until their kids are grown, so if they send him I am going to look like a fool, and a liar. And I don't care too much what people think about me but in a small town it is everyone talks about you and stories get twisted and you get judged a little more. It's bittersweet either way. But in the wise words of my grandma, "if they arnt talkin about you, there talking about someone else" so I guess they can keep talking about me and get my name out there a little more.

Chapter 28- Joe is coming home

Joe is going to be done with school here in a few weeks, and I know he will be coming home for the summer. I just know he is going to see her at least once and I'm terrified he is going to see himself in her, because she looks just like him and his family. I know I can't avoid him forever. I have to take my baby out to the big 4th of July carnival and to our city celebration, and the rodeo and all that fun stuff. I wish he would get a job up there and just stay up there. This whole living in fear of him is ridiculous. I hate it. But I will do whatever it takes to keep my baby from him.

Chapter 27- Dear Joe...Take a Hint From One angry momma

Does anyone else hate it when you just get to sleep and VRRRR your phone vibrates? Annoying right? Well this happened to me Saturday night. But I actually woke up to three text messages after hearing the last text vibrate.  The first one was from a friend and no big deal, the last one was a Facebook status, but the second one ughh it was Joe. He sent it at 10:46 p.m. and all it said once again was "hey". So I woke up to the text at like 1 a.m. and had nightmares about Joe or would wake up in panic about rolling over onto my phone and texting him or accidentally calling him or something so I didn't exactly sleep too well.
That next day I was watching General Conference while playing with Nix, and the talk they were giving said something about being parents or something about kids or what not, well like 5 seconds after my phone goes off so I look at it... Its Joe's number. This was a new text this one said "Are you watching conference? :)". I started yelling "What the heck, Oh my gosh, you have got to be kidding me!!!" my mom yelled back "what?" and I said Joe just texted me and I showed her the text and we quickly took pictures of both texts and put it into our book of everything Joe has done.
21 minutes later my phone went off again, and I casually picked it up, looked and yelled again! This last text said "Hey im sorry Myranda. Can we talk when you get some time?" He really doesn't realize I have no want or desire to talk to him. I would love for his next text to say Goodbye Im done you will never hear from me again, or something. This is 24 texts over like the last 6 months that I have not responded to. When will this loser ever take the hint? He makes himself look more pathetic with every responded text he sends. The only way I am going to talk to him is through a Court date. My little girl and I are done with him. We have moved on and are looking for someone better. Its his turn to move on.