Between yesterday and this morning I am constantly breaking down. Joe has done it again. But I am afraid this is the end of the games and its getting real. My bishop asked me to come talk to him yesterday. I had a hunch it was about Joe and wanting to serve a church mission. I just didn't know what was going to happen when I went in to his office.
I went in there and my bishop sat across from me and explained to me how joe has requested to serve a church mission but it is a rule that a missionary CAN NOT have fathered a child. So then he told me that Joe had already agreed to a paternity test because " there is no way that he could be her father". I said that I would not agree to that. And my bishop told me that they would see if he would sign away his rights as a parent then do the test. I said that would be great. Later I found out we can't really do that so now the church is trying to decide how to handle this situation. I don't think they realise that proving that Joe is her dad is only going to put her into danger. I am sick of this. Why can't Joe just leave us alone.
Monday, February 11, 2013
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
Chapter 15- my response he will never see
So this morning Nix and I were rudely awoken by 2 texts from Joe. The first one made me die. It simply said Hi There :). Then a few minutes later I get one saying something about how he doesn't want to argue or talk about getting a paternity test he just wanted to know how I was doing. Since when has he cared how I was doing? He hasn't cared for years. So since I never do and never will respond to his texts this is the response I wish I could send but thinks its best to still not contact him.
... Alright so you care to know how I am doing suddenly after a whole pregnancy, child labor and being a single parent to your baby for almost a year?. As a matter of fact I am great! Never been better. I never realised what a scum bag you were until you left. I don't know what it is you want from me bud but you are not going to get it. I owe you nothing. You completely abandoned me when I needed you most and never once have been there for your daughter. But really it's okay we are 100% better off with out you. You put me through hell and back the whole time we dated and at the time I never seen how minipulative and greedy you were until the day you yelled at me in the gym calling me "easy". I am sure not perfect but I am far from easy. Now if you want part of me or your daughters life eh well you missed your chances I gave you. For the longest time I had hoped you would realise what a piece of crap you had acted like and some how fix it. But now I see I deserve better than you. I could not take you back. And one day when Nix is old enough I will give her the option to meet you but I hope she sees the real you and does not want to meet the man who used her mom but when he got what he wanted, but when reality hit he wasn't man enough to be her dad. One day she will have a dad one who loves her because he just does and doesn't have to. Some one who is more of a man than you could ever hope of being. But to answer your question I'm fine great fantastic and so is your baby. You have no need to change that. Please stop texting me because each time you get a little more pathetic and honestly creepy. After 14 texts of no reply rake the hint before I get a restraining order, you know like the one you threaded me with after sending you 2 texts. Be a man and move on because the two girls who would have been best for you you let us go because we have let you go and will never regret it.
... Alright so you care to know how I am doing suddenly after a whole pregnancy, child labor and being a single parent to your baby for almost a year?. As a matter of fact I am great! Never been better. I never realised what a scum bag you were until you left. I don't know what it is you want from me bud but you are not going to get it. I owe you nothing. You completely abandoned me when I needed you most and never once have been there for your daughter. But really it's okay we are 100% better off with out you. You put me through hell and back the whole time we dated and at the time I never seen how minipulative and greedy you were until the day you yelled at me in the gym calling me "easy". I am sure not perfect but I am far from easy. Now if you want part of me or your daughters life eh well you missed your chances I gave you. For the longest time I had hoped you would realise what a piece of crap you had acted like and some how fix it. But now I see I deserve better than you. I could not take you back. And one day when Nix is old enough I will give her the option to meet you but I hope she sees the real you and does not want to meet the man who used her mom but when he got what he wanted, but when reality hit he wasn't man enough to be her dad. One day she will have a dad one who loves her because he just does and doesn't have to. Some one who is more of a man than you could ever hope of being. But to answer your question I'm fine great fantastic and so is your baby. You have no need to change that. Please stop texting me because each time you get a little more pathetic and honestly creepy. After 14 texts of no reply rake the hint before I get a restraining order, you know like the one you threaded me with after sending you 2 texts. Be a man and move on because the two girls who would have been best for you you let us go because we have let you go and will never regret it.
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