Chapter 33- this is what I was afraid of.

Lately things with Joe habe been super good. I havnt heard from him, life has been peaceful.
It's been peaceful but stressful.  My family decided to move and within 5 or 6 weeks after putting my home up for sale we sold it and are living in a new house. On top of the stresses of a quick move, my friend Andrea texted me some small talk then just told me that joe had received his mission call. I guess a lot of people knew about it but didn't want to tell me.  He is going to Mexico and leaves in a few months.
When I read her text I was physically sick. I couldn't believe the church would let him go. Plus all the rumors would start flying again. That night I stayed up until 1 am jUst crying and being upset. Nothing is fair with him ever. Ues I know I have the prize of having Nixxon, but I had to give up the one sport I did, dance while he became captain of his teams. I had to graduate school early, while he got to stay. I spent my senior year home with my parents as he became super popular. He gets to serve a mission unworthly and I have repented and there is no way for me to serve. He has a girlfriend who I hear that can't stand him,  and I attract weird guys who I don't want a second date with.
I really struggled with it all that night.
But the next day I was talking to my mom about it and how I didn't understand how the church leaders could let him go, but I realized that unless joe confessed to everything the church can't hold it against him or they are listening to rumors and don't know the truth for sure. Plus even good people make mistakes not even church leaders are perfect.  Also when he leaves I want to be able to post pictures of mu princess on my Facebook again. He won't br able to see her so I think I can do that finally.
I am glad to see him go now. Thats going to be 2 years I have to get Nixxon adopted to someone even better. God knows what he is doing I'm sure his timing is all for a reason.